Afraid that we should be apart

Hmmm. Sdh 18 bln perjalanan cinta antara aq dan gun2. Everything feels so unpredictable.

Aq nda tau hrs ya apa. Hr ini tepat 18 bln qta, tp perasaan ini bkn bahagia tp harap2 cemas.

Mengapa? yah karena masih blm tau gimana hail akhir dr semuanya. Decision isn't on me. He makes decision depend on his parents allow us or not.

Kesetiaan diantara kita?

sudah tidak diragukan lagi.

Tapi bagaimana kalo cinta itu hrs terbentur dgn restu org tua?

Yah, di negara kita tidak bisa menikah tanpa restu org tua. Hal itu dianggap tdk sesuai dengan norma2 yg ada di masyarakat.

Berdoa hanya satu2nya jalan yg bs aku lakukan saat ini. Nothing's more.

Aq sdh berusaha yg terbaik dlm diriku.

Tapi aq sanggup hidup tanpa dia?

I don't know exactly.

Aq tidak pernah menunggu seorang pria begitu lama spt dgn dirinya.

If people asks me "Why should I love him?"

There's no good reason to answer it. Why? Love needs no reason.

I do the best I can do.

Gun, aq ga ngerti km msh pernah buka blog ku ini ato nda.

Tp kalopun km baca ini hmmm.... intinya apapun yg terjd aq sdh tau kok apa yg hrs aq lakukan.

Aq berharap isa dpt good news dr km. Tp kalopun aq dpt bad news, km yg paling tau bagaimana konsistensi perasaan yg pernah aq beri buat km.

N then... I'll be waiting 'til the last time

Loving U

After all that we've been through
I find myself still loving u
even though we need to take the time to get it right.
I'm gonna be fine if we need to take it slow
Cause the truth that I'm too afraid to lose u

Like what I felt before when I thinked it's over
I lost half of my soul and didn't know how to get it back
I saw the color of life just black and white
Seems like a nightmare for me

And now when I know that there's a way back into love
I just want to fix it all, wrong into right
and make sure that this love is not a mistake

Do I Know???

Start to love him is an easy way but stop this love is a difficult things I've ever done.

What should we do when we love someone but he doesn't?
Should we pretend or surrender this feeling?
I have no answer of this case.
I just know when I love him, I will keep this feeling until the time I can't love him more.

Don't know when this love will end
Don't know when my eyes stop see on him
Don't know when I'll never say his name again
But I know, I have been making a beautiful story with him.
Not for him, but for me obviously.

My dream

I have dreamed that we meet in this place. And i know that one day, i will see u there. I don't know what gonna happen when we see each other there. Will I still love u? Or maybe, those day I will begin a new life without u? Can I live without u?
I don't know. I try and it's so hard for me to say goodbye. I can't do it. In my life and my heart, u're the only one for me.Je t'aime plus. Tu es beau pour moi.

Time to say Goodbye

For a long time..
finally...
It's over...

I'm sad...I can't hold this feeling...
because I'm the one who love u so.
You were the beautiful present I have ever got in my life.
But like what I said before, it's done.

I try to love u in the other way...
Let u go for ur happiness...
and i know, i can pass it through.
I'm strong enough, am I?

I don't need ur apology because it's not ur fault.
I just want to thanking for many things u gave to me.
That's wonderful, really.
Just in case, you can't be mine, but I glad can be ur best friend.
I'll be there when u need me and stay with u when u feel lonely.

At least, i believe someday my prince will come
and I will stop to love u.
But I still like u as a friend and will always miss u.

I believe that u will find ur true love, so do I.

P.S. I Love You

Feature (Cyber PR)

Selama ini aku cukup bahagia karena bisa berteman dengan seseorang yg kuanggap menarik. Seorang cowok yang manis dan menyenangkan. Hingga suatu saat aku sadar bahwa selama ini ternyata aku punya perasaan khusus ke temanku itu. Di setiap mslh yg aku hadapi, ternyata dia org pertama yg aku cari utk berbagi semua yg aku rasakan. For me, he is a good listener....
And he was my shoulder to cry on...
It should to be ended. Tapi aku nda sanggup akhiri semua ini, karena dia teman baikku, yg slalu aku sayangi. Yg ga akan pernah berubah di mataku. Yg slalu mengubah air mataku menjadi senyuman dengan setiap berada di sisinya.
Mungkin ini belum saatnya kita untuk memulai. It's too early for us. Masih banyak yg harus diuji dari perasaan kita, kesiapan kita, kesetiaan dan kejujuran kita.
And I believe, everything happened is the best for him and me.

Miss u

More than a week I don't see u.
I miss u so much.
Always remember all time we've passed it through.
Laugh n cry...
Love n lost...
Regret n realize...
And now, I'm gonna miss u more than before.
I don't know when will I see u again.
But,when I close my eyes...
I know that u always stay inside my heart.
Never go away....